When it rains......

I get out my umbrella lol. I was going to say when it rains it pours, and it does, but I get out my umbrella and make an attempt to stay dry. Lately it's been pouring here. Life has dealt me a handful; Riley's first birthday and party, my father passing away, Riley's emergency surgery, and starting with a new couples therapist. Phew, I'm exhausted.

I wish I had something witty to say about it all but I don't. It all sucks-minus Riley's birthday. It was tough to watch him turn one and realize I will never have another baby in my house now that he has reached toddler hood but I am so proud of the little person he is becoming I could burst. His party was a success and I am so glad I did it all on my own and got to feel that sense of accomplishment.

The rest sucks. My father's passing left me with a mix of emotions I wouldn't wish on anyone and I am still reeling from the fact that my dad is gone. I haven't really had time to grieve his death and I know that's going to hit like a ton of bricks one of these days and I am not looking forward to it.

Riley's emergency surgery this weekend was so stressful and my poor little guy was in so much pain and there was nothing I could really do to help. I felt horrible but knew we were doing the right thing. The only thing that calmed him down in recovery was me kissing him over and over and over; how sweet is that? I love him so much......I never want to see him hurting and scared like that again.

So really I have nothing witty to say, no funny stories to share, no major insights. I almost just posted the words technical difficulties for the blog entry. Not that the blog is having any trouble, just it's author. So bare with me......I'll be back to write again soon I'm just not sure you'll want to read it :)